So my pledge to Single September is now over.
It went well in the sense that I am indeed, still single but in terms of getting back in to running and exercise the closest that I actually got was buying some whey protein and some new running trainers. That wasn’t exactly the plan I suppose but never the less, I’ll get back to it.
I deleted my online dating profile at the end of August as it was becoming a bit tiresome, I was just seeing the same faces and couldn’t help but wonder why they were still on there and then I realised they were probably doing the same thing when my face popped up so I called it quits.
I somehow still managed to obtain 4 people asking me out on a date during September – all of which I turned down. My heart still isn’t in dating as nobody I’ve come across is really ticking any of my boxes so I still don’t see reason to waste anyones time for the sake of a date.
Flirting “in real life” is something of a new challenge I’ve given myself. I’m usually going somewhere for a reason and that’s what I do and then I go home. I very rarely look around or even interact unless someone is in my way or it’s a shop keeper but I decided to try and be a bit more sociable. Even if it’s just saying hello to someone waiting at the bus stop or talking to someone who’s walking their dog which is generally hard to avoid when the dog comes bounding over to say hello. But eye contact and conversation is something I avoid with strangers, not because I’m shy, but just because I don’t like people.
I’ve found that it’s actually a really nice thing to experience. I made an old mans day when I called his dog handsome and then joked I was meaning him. I got my day made when a handsome stranger reciprocated my flirting (cliché but ever so true). One of my flirting experiments went so well and he was staring at me that intensely and smiling, I thought it had gone all wrong and I must have had snot on my nose or something -but I didn’t, imagine!
It’s been a nice confidence boost in all aspects and it really is true about smiling to a stranger and you can make their day. Don’t get me wrong, I still dislike people but they’re not all bad. I might work on trying to get a date with someone from real life instead of the internet. Whilst I was going to go with “Only Me October”, I think this might be another little challenge I set myself for the month.
Oh, along with running 5k in under 30 minutes.
reconcat asked: I love you so much for your post! I was very moved and you are truly amazing. Hope you never feel bad about yourself again. You've really come so far, so please keep being strong and keep up the good work. Lots of love to you. ♥♥
Thankyou ever so much :) That’s really a very lovely message. Sometimes I wonder about posting such personal thoughts but then feedback like this always makes it worth it. xxx
Anonymous asked: You look great. How many squats do you do a day?X
Thankyou. It varies from day to day to be honest, I was serious when I said do them when you’re waiting for the kettle to boil etc haha! I also usually do the 30 Day Shred DVD work out and if there’s a activity on there I’m struggling with I usually swap them for squats with weights - you can really feel the burn then! x
There are many things that make us jump on and off the bandwagon of healthy eating. I’ve probably sampled every excuse both ways and yet still I find myself fat. Which probably means I should just stop making excuses and crack the fuck on.
I’m easily distracted is probably my biggest downfall. I know what I should and shouldn’t be doing but I’ll see something on offer at the supermarket and I’ll buy it and it’s only when I get home I realise I’m not really allowed that anymore but yet I’ll be eating my way through two boxes of family size Frosties for the next 6 weeks because I can’t throw them away!
I’m also very lazy, I’ll buy all the salad stuff but unless I prep them straight away and put them in the fridge, nothing will happen until I open the fridge one day and there’s a soggy cucumber staring back at me.
I shouldn’t be like that really as I know that when I focus and put myself in the zone I get alarming results very quickly but I only have to hear someone in the house say they’re ordering pizza and I forget all about seeing my naked reflection in the mirror that morning.
We all jump on and off, I follow a wide variety of people on Twitter and here that are at various points on their weight loss journey and it happens to us all, and in a way that’s comforting to know that you’re not alone. Losing weight is hard but it’s getting harder and harder to look at myself and hate myself. I’m getting comfortable in being “overweight” and I don’t want to.
What’s had me hotfooting it across to the wagon and belly flopping on this time is that over the last weekend I had Dominos, Pizza Hut and then this morning I had a McDonalds breakfast which has left me feeling like what I can only describe as how a slug must feel.
I don’t want to be a slug.
So with this fresh in my mind I’ve just wrote a shopping list and shall head to Aldi (don’t judge me, it’s excellent for fresh British fruit and veg) and get stocked up and I shall then go home and do all my food prep and I shall then set my alarm to be up at 5:30 so that I can get back into my weight training and a 5k run before work EVERYDAY.
I’m going out for a friends birthday in 5 weeks and have my eye on a dress that’s so tight and revealing when I put it on you’ll probably be able to see what the sex of my first born will be and I tell you now, that dress won’t be a good look on someone who’s just described themselves as a slug so it’s time to crack on.